I want to get fentanyl or other strong opioids but am sheltered and have little experience buying drugs

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I want to get fentanyl or other strong opioids but am sheltered and have little experience buying drugs

I want to get fentanyl or other strong opioids but am sheltered and have little experience buying drugs.
Having done some research, vODing on it seems like the best way to commit suicide for me: fast, relatively painless, and not a high chance of maiming myself if I fail.
Are there online pharmacies that ship to the US without prescription? Are there informal online groups for it (e.g. Telegram)? Is the dark web the only way? Any links?
Getting it off the street is another option, but 1. I don't know where any street drug sellers are, 2. I don't know if they'd be willing to sell me enough for me to overdose all at once, because I have to be able to come back for more.

inb4 "You're not serious, or else you'd have done it, faggot"

I guess it doesn't matter if I'm serious, because I just want information.

If you're in America, it's really really easy to access fentanyl pills

If you came here, I would sell you some
If you were serious about ending your life, I would give them to you for free

I am in America, and yes I'm serious. Do you have any contact info?

HINT: Go to the black side of town, and look for niggers congregating outside of a convenience store

Don't act like a nerdy dorky sheltered little white guy

And also do not try to act like a cool black dude either

Just be yourself
Tell them you're looking for some blue oxys

they're usually $30 each
for 30 mg
buy five of them

And you are correct
It's the most desirable, painless, enjoyable way to leave this planet

You will nod out
And you won't even realize
Your lungs stopped working

you'll die with a smile on your face
completely oblivious to the fact that you had stopped breathing

AGAIN:
GO TO THE BLACK SIDE OF TOWN

(Yes, that's the fastest way to access them. You're going to have to purchase them from a nigger)

Go to the black side of town
look for a bunch of niggers congregating outside of a convenience store

Don't go to the youngest ones
And don't go to the oldest ones
find somebody right in the middle, and tell them what you're looking for

DO NOT TELL THEM WHY YOU WANT THEM

Just pretend you want to get high

If they don't have them, they definitely know another nigger who does have them

offer to pay a little extra money to put in their pocket if they'll help you

thank me after you're dead

the theory here is simple:

The person you approach will not have them in his pocket, so don't expect it

however, he definitely WILL know another nigger who does have them.

getting ripped off? That's always a possibility

But what's your goal here? saving money for the future?

That's the advice you were looking for

now either go do it or shut the fuck up about killing yourself because it's extremely unattractive

FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF IS WHY GIRLS DON'T LIKE YOU

YOU COULD HAVE SIMPLY MODIFIED YOUR BEHAVIOR, AND THE WORLD WOULD HAVE STARTED TREATING YOU BETTER

when the world sees somebody who feels sorry for himself, we enjoy piling even more problems on top of him

It's a sadistic facet of the human animal, so the quicker you learn, the faster you can be happy:

BY BEHAVING LIKE A HAPPY PERSON, SUDDENLY THE WORLD WILL START TREATING YOU BETTER

BY FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF, THE WORLD ENJOYS YOU SUFFERING

FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF IS WHY GIRLS DON'T LIKE YOU

Lol this has nothing to do with not enough girls or being an incel.
Thanks for the advice, though.

see?.. You're still believing the lies that you keep whispering into your own ear

I didn't stutter, and I didn't ask a question

AGAIN: FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF IS A HUGE TURN OFF TO EVERYBODY

women, men, even children are wise enough to realize when people feel sorry for themselves, they want other people to feel sorry for them, as well

That's an indicator of much bigger personality problems

AND YES, GIRLS DON'T LIKE IT

also, you can stop kidding yourself about INCEL, because there's absolutely nothing "involuntary" about you continuing to make the same decisions every morning when you wake up

there's nothing involuntary about you living a parody lifestyle, literally designed to repel women

Why would a woman be interested in a guy sitting in a gaming chair, watching anime, masturbating, and downloading porn?

That's not involuntary...
IT'S A CONSCIOUS DECISION ON YOUR PART

see?... I told you this is indicative of a much bigger personality problem

You've literally dug a hole for yourself, and now that you're down in the bottom, you're pretending like you don't know how you got there

You're using the term "involuntary", as if you're not responsible for your own problems

YOU BLAME THE WORLD FOR YOUR OWN SELF-IMPOSED PROBLEMS AND SHORTCOMINGS

You blame women for YOU simply not trying?

maybe killing yourself is a good idea
because if you're going to continue playing stupid, maybe you actually are stupid after all

maybe it's not an act anymore

You've actually started to believe your own bullshit lies and excuses

every time I see one of you guys pretend "It's not my fault that I don't have a girlfriend", It cracks me up

because you are unwittingly making a fool out of yourselves

YES IT IS YOUR FAULT

women aren't obligated to pretend they like you

it's YOUR JOB to be likable

It's your job TRY.....
But you never try
You sit in that gaming chair
believing your own excuses
AND YOU NEVER EVEN TRY

then you turn around, feel sorry for yourself, and blame the world for the fact that you never even fucking tried

May I recommend buying 20 of those pills? Go ahead and make sure you never wake up

If you're going to spend the rest of your life blaming the world for your own refusal to even try, then you serve no purpose on this planet.

ASSUME ACCOUNTABILITY IN YOUR OWN FUCKING PROBLEMS

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO CREATED THEM, NOT US

NOT YOUR MOTHER...
NOT YOUR FATHER...
NOT JEWS..
NOT WOMEN...
NOT SPACE ALIENS....

............. YOU

YOU CREATED ALL OF YOUR OWN PROBLEMS

(So did I. I created all of my own problems as well, and just like you, I used to point fingers at the world and blame them for all of my self imposed problems)

everybody creates our own problems for ourselves

ONLY CHILDREN BLAME THE WORLD
FOR THEIR OWN SELF-IMPOSED
SHORTCOMINGS AND PROBLEMS

GROW THE FUCK UP

I gave you rock solid advice on how to kill yourself today

If you followed my advice, you could actually have those blue pills in your hand before lunch

But you're not going to hurt yourself
You don't have the balls to hurt yourself
You're just melodramatic
You seek attention
People who want to kill themselves don't create threads asking for advice

You know lots of ways of killing yourself, and you would already be dead

You don't need any advice
You don't need any blue pills
You need DETERMINATION

which you don't have

You don't even have enough determination to get off your ass and go introduce yourself to some girls and learn how to fit in

So you certainly don't have enough determination to kill yourself

The funniest part?

You didn't have the insight required to ask me how you can get a girlfriend, instead of asking me how to obtain bootleg oxy pills.

because you could have blue pills in your pocket by lunch time if you followed my advice... duhhh

But you could just as easily have a beautiful smart funny cool girlfriend by this time next week... If you simply followed my advice

You were asking the wrong question

You're lying to yourself
You're lying about your GOAL
Your goal is not death

Your actual goal is HAPPINESS

So stop using misdirection and distraction techniques

stay on course

ACHIEVE YOUR GOAL
what you want is a girlfriend

You're not fooling anybody

One thing is for damn sure:

It's a lot easier for you to find a girlfriend than it would be for you to find bootleg oxy pills

It requires much less effort, and the rewards are much greater

Drugs are bad.

Don't do it.

Seriously though.

jesus christ shut the fuck up

Ignore him, he's Anon Babble's resident autist.

YOU GET ZERO PUSSY

NO WOMAN IS HAVING SEX WITH YOU

YOUR ONLY SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS HAVE HAPPENED WITH YOUR PENIS IN YOUR HAND WHILE STARING AT YOUR COMPUTER

NO WOMAN WILL HAVE SEX WITH YOU

I can teach you how to have a girlfriend within 7 days

absolutely guaranteed you could have a cool smart and pretty girlfriend within one week

BUT YOU'RE GOING TO CONTINUE SITTING IN YOUR GAMING CHAIR MASTURBATING LIKE A LITTLE BOY

YOU'RE MORE LIKE A LITTLE GIRL

YOU'RE LESS LIKE A LITTLE BOY
AND MUCH MORE LIKE A LITTLE GIRL

what video game are you playing this week, little girl?.....

I'm getting my dick sucked all week long... what video game are you going to be playing while I'm getting my dick sucked?

YOU DON'T HAVE A FUCKING JOB
obviously
MCDONALD'S IS HIRING

YOU LONELY SEDENTARY MASTURBATING LOSER WITH THE LADIES

GET A FUCKING JOB, YOU LAZY FUCKING BUM!!!!

Good luck with that....

SPEAKING OF VAGINAS:

YOU DON'T GET ANY PUSSY EITHER

You're not fooling anybody
You don't get any pussy, either

You're also a lonely masturbating gaming chair douchebucket

THAT'S YOUR CHOICE
THAT WAS YOUR DECISION
you'd like to pretend that it wasn't your fault

WOMEN DON'T LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE DECIDED TO BE A DOUCHEBAG

or perhaps you're simply too stupid to figure out how to attract a woman?

is that the reason you don't get any pussy?
Even retarded bag boys at grocery stores can figure out how to find a girlfriend

or perhaps....
maybe... Just maybe....
YOU'RE SECRETLY HOMOSEXUAL?

I could easily teach you how to find a girlfriend really fast, and then if you lose her, it will be your fault...

You never even try to get any pussy, because you're too scared to try

You're scared of failing, so you never even try

YOU FAIL DUE TO YOUR FEAR OF FAILURE

You're not fooling anybody, and you can't even fool yourself.

AGAIN: You're so afraid of rejection, you never even try

YOU FAIL DUE TO YOUR FEAR OF FAILURE

.............. absolutely brilliant

poor little baby boopsy.....

hims unhappy
hims feels sorry for himself
hims created a thread
hims wants sympathy
hims is gonna KILL HIMSELF

hahahahahahahahaha!!!

GOOD!!... hurry up and get it over with
You're wasting our oxygen and water supplies

What if you ain't gay?

It's an 8/10 pain experience, but not as bad as a bunch of people say

This guy is projecting hard. I always think these guys are gay, unprompted start talking about redpill stuff, seems like they're just talking to themselves lol.

You have any pics of the hoes you fucked?

after doing some research hahaha

"relatively painless"?
dumbass, it's COMPLETELY painless

relatively?..
You're not very good at research, are you?

IT'S COMPLETELY PAINLESS

please kill yourself before lunch.
(none of us ever asked you to be born)

PAY ATTENTION:

I died from fentanyl.
100% true
many years ago, long before fentanyl had become such a problem

I did perhaps one or two micrograms too much, and died. My lips turned blue. I was in cyanosis. My heart had stopped.

My ex-wife performed CPR until the paramedics got there

IT'S ABSOLUTELY 100% PAINLESS

ZERO PAIN WHATSOEVER

we didn't have smartphones in the '80s and '90s, so we weren't going around taking selfies of each other

these were women I'd meet in nightclubs, and we would end up in bed soon afterwards. we didn't sit around taking photographs of each other

But have you fucked any women as recent as 1 year ago? Nudes? Nothing?

by the way, if you think I'm lying when I say I have DIED.... lol you'd be mistaken

technically, my heart has stopped five times

I have been clinically dead FIVE TIMES

four of them were at my own hands
One of them was intentional

But here's the cure for suicidal thoughts:
THE FINAL TIME THAT I DIED.....

I died on an operating table in Macon, Georgia, during a surgical procedure, Wendy anesthesiologist inadvertently overadministered PROPOFOL

(The exact same drug that killed Michael Jackson)

in fact, my incident happened a month before Michael Jackson died from the same goddamn drug.

to be continued

In this thread:
loVIS yells at no one as nauseaum about video game chairs , no pussy and jacking off. He will probably tell you he knows someone famous. Or that his wife something something. He quit drugs, but he just rolled a spliff. Blah blah blah
HOLY SHIT. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

oh you're talking about in the past 10 years? 11 years?

I'm currently married to my wife of 11 years so far, and she's talked five different girls into bed with us

I posted pics in here of one of those girls in bed with my wife, but they're not very good pictures

really. they weren't very good. kind of blurry and poorly illuminated

But yeah...

let me finish explaining about
THE CURE FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

McDonald's is waiting for you

they've got a job application waiting right now

hurry up

THE CURE FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS:

HAVE SOMEBODY ELSE KILL YOU
you'd be amazed how different it is when it's somebody else killing you.

I had a massive heart attack on the operating table. what they later referred to as "a cardiac event"

the anesthesiologist overadministered propofol, And I had a massive heart attack right there on the operating table.

from what I was told afterwards, I FOUGHT BACK

in fact, I managed to EXTUBATE myself
.... extubate
That's a term I had never really heard before

I RIPPED THE BREATHING TUBE OUT OF MY MOUTH AND LUNGS!!!!!!!

And I was told I fought the medical staff, while still on the operating table I fought back. (My wife and mother were waiting outside in a waiting area down the hall, and they said nurses came running out of the operating room in a panic, and One of the nurses told my wife "Your husband is STRONG!!!")

sidenote:
I'm definitely not weak, but I'm not particularly strong either, I'm just average.

It turns out you have scary super human strength when you're having a heart attack after being overdosed with propofol, I guess... fight or flight, my last subconscious fight to live

anyway....
they defibrillated me
shocked my heart back into life again

And they immediately put me into a medically induced coma, and shipped me upstairs to the cardiovascular intensive Care unit (CVICU) to monitor my heart for damage.

I was kept in a medically induced coma for 14 days.. two entire weeks trapped in a medically induced coma, after DYING and being brought back to life through electrical shock.

after 14 days in a coma, they pulled me out of it, and sent me home...

to be continued

My wife drove me back home, and within a short amount of time, suddenly I didn't feel so good

And as the minutes clicked by, I started getting worse and worse. I had never felt like this before

suddenly I started feel REALLY REALLY BAD, And I was rushed back to the emergency room again.

It turns out I had gone into OPIOID WITHDRAWAL

yep!!.... I didn't realize while I was in the coma, they had a PICC line fentanyl drip going directly into my carotid artery

For two weeks, they had me on a FENTANYL DRIP into my neck, and I never realized it.

I had become physically dependent on opioids

And now I was experiencing what junkies call a "dope sick"

THE CURE FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS:
let somebody else try to kill you

you'll see....
you'll literally fight for life

at the age of 12, I smoked my first joint.

100% true: The very next day, I took my first hit of LSD

yep. I went from marijuana to LSD in one day, because I liked getting high so much. being high felt really good.

over the course of several decades, I continued experimenting with drugs, but I was never a "DRUG ADDICT"

because I was never physically dependent on any drugs

It was simply psychological willpower, psychological addiction.. Not physical dependency

THE ONLY TIME I HAVE EVER BEEN "ADDICTED" WAS AFTER DYING ON THE OPERATING TABLE

because after 2 weeks of steady fentanyl drips into my bloodstream, my body had become completely physically dependent on opioids

So I had to carefully wean myself off opioids, and get clean

which I succeeded in doing...

about 30 days after coming home from the hospital, I was watching TV when they had a breaking news report:
"Michael Jackson dies from propofol"

And I told my wife and kids, "I've got a little experience dying from that drug, as well"

So although I'm sure you think my stories are all bullshit, believe it or not, they're all true

This story is 100% true
I swear to fucking God it's true
I technically been dead five times

DYING FROM OPIOIDS IS 100% PAINLESS

feel free to tell me where this alleged "pain" comes from?

The way you die from opioids is simple:
respiratory arrest
And you're completely oblivious while it's happening

there's absolutely zero pain. I promise

Your lungs stop working, but you don't realize it, because you are so fucked up, you're off in a cloud somewhere with a smile on your face, completely dissociated from your physical body. there's zero pain

I've had several really really close loved friends in my life who killed themselves
in fact, more than I'd like to remember
(after typing the first sentence of my post, suddenly I just thought about MIKE LYNCH... my good buddy, one of the coolest guys ever. And some girl rejected him so he went out and sat in his car in the parking lot where we worked, and put a gun in his mouth)

I know how suicidal people behave
THEY DON'T CREATE THREADS...
If somebody's creating a thread about their alleged upcoming suicide, THEIR GOAL IS CONVERSATION...
THEY ARE LOOKING FOR CONVERSATION...
So I don't treat these people with kid gloves. I'm not going to cater to you, or tell you bullshit like "Don't do it, anon. there's reason to live"
fuck no....
If you wanted to kill yourself
you'd already be dead
You're not fooling me at all
You don't need any advice to kill yourself
any 7-year-old child knows how to kill themselves
You're looking for conversation

YOU FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF
That's the real problem
YOU FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF

Your real problem is BEING HONEST
instead of being honest, and admitting you're just unhappy, and you're lonely, you'd rather try to make people feel sorry for you
nobody mentions their alleged upcoming suicide unless they are seeking sympathy from other people
I'm not going to give you a goddamn drop of sympathy

HURRY UP AND KILL YOURSELF!!
get it over right now
STOP WASTING MY TIME
And if you're not already dead, then shut up, relax, and pay attention:
It's not even pussy that you want
YOU JUST WANT A TRUSTED FRIEND
You want a girlfriend for much more than just sex

YOU SIMPLY WANT A TRUSTED FRIEND

So how is this thread going to help you achieve that goal?

That's the problem...
You're using misdirection
and you're not being honest
You talk about wanting death
when in reality
YOU WANT A TRUSTED FRIEND

God damn it, Mike Lynch !!!

I can't believe you did it....

Mike Lynch was COOL AS FUCK!!!!

he was FUNNY AS SHIT!!!!!

I'm not even going to get examples, but trust me... He was HILARIOUS!! funny as shit... Great dude... GREAT GREAT DUDE

But some girl rejected him
It wasn't even a girlfriend
He had placed all of his hopes and dreams on a woman, without her reciprocating

So he went out into his car in the parking lot of the nightclub where we worked

then he put a gun in his mouth

I KNOW HOW SUICIDAL PEOPLE BEHAVE
suicidal people kill themselves

they don't look for conversations
they don't try to spark up conversations about "hey I need some advice killing myself"

YOU ARE SIMPLY LONELY
AND YOU DON'T KNOW HOW
TO GET WHAT YOU WANT

You could have a girlfriend right now, if you had simply started working on it a week ago, or maybe two weeks ago...

what if it took longer than 2 weeks?
what if it took an entire month?

what have you been doing for this past 30 days?

........ NOT TRYING
That's what you've been doing
NOT EVEN TRYING
instead, for the past 30 days you've been feeling sorry for yourself

That's a symptom of a much bigger problem

I would suggest you stop and reassess your perspective on life

YOU are the reason you will find a girlfriend, or conversely YOU Will be the reason you don't find a girlfriend

stop wasting time convincing yourself it's involuntary

YOU simply don't know how to get what YOU WANT

I'm not always right....
I realize I'm overly opinionated
(I've earned the right to be overly opinionated, because I've been on the planet for quite some time now, and I've paid pretty close attention)

But I'm not always right...
I've been wrong many times, and I'll be wrong many more times in the future.

But this time, I'm not wrong
YOU WANT A GIRLFRIEND

You want to be happy
You want somebody to love you
You want somebody on your team
sure, sex comes with the package
But sex is not your goal

YOU WANT A BEST FRIEND

instead of asking advice on killing yourself, you should find somebody with a lot of experience with women, and ask them if they could teach you a couple shortcuts

You might be surprised what youll learn

I told you my heart's stopped five times. I have been clinically dead five times

And I mentioned two of those were intentional

I didn't go asking anybody advice
I did my own fucking research
And I discovered a particular medication
(I'm not going to name the medication in here, sorry)

This particular medication can be extremely dangerous, because after a certain milligram amount YOU WILL HAVE A MASSIVE HEART ATTACK

So I obtained the right amount of the medication

and sure as fuck, I had a heart attack

But I woke up while having my stomach pumped in an emergency room

I had taken great pains to make sure nobody would find me for a while, but somehow, a random stranger just happened to hear the noise of me falling and hitting the wall from the business next door, and he ran over and performed CPR and called an ambulance

I don't believe in God
But believers would say "God didn't want you to die that day"

I don't know why, but for some weird reason ALL FIVE TIMES I was resuscitated and I lived through it

All five times my heart had STOPPED
But I was resuscitated all five times

And I still don't believe in God

The first four times were my fault
The fifth time was somebody else's fault

THE CURE FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS:
LET SOMEBODY ELSE TRY TO KILL YOU

And you will fight tooth and nail to stay alive. I promise. you'll see

I asked for advice because I don't know how to get fentanyl and I'm too scared of failing and maiming myself, or slowly and painfully dying, to use a rope or jump under a train or stab my heart with a knife. If I had easy access to a gun I'd have used it.

YOU WANT A GIRLFRIEND

YOU WANT A BEST FRIEND

No. Stop writing and stop projecting, please.

here's a great example:

If I came over there to bring you some blue bootleg oxy pills, and as you were pulling your money out of your pocket, I PUT YOU INTO A HEADLOCK AND STARTED STRANGLING YOU, CUTTING OFF YOUR OXYGEN SUPPLY....

YOU WOULD FIGHT BACK WITH EVERY OUNCE OF EFFORT YOU COULD POSSIBLY MUSTER

YOU WOULD FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE

So don't blow smoke up my ass about suicide

You're simply confused and depressed because you don't know how to get what you want out of life

You don't know how to find a girl who loves you

You don't want death. You want a trusted friend... Who happens to have a vagina between her legs

So you're a homosexual? oh, okay that's okay

Like I said.. I've been wrong before

I didn't realize you're a homosexual

IN THAT CASE, PLEASE DIE IMMEDIATELY

YOU LITERALLY SERVE NO PURPOSE ON THIS PLANET

HUMANS ARE REPRODUCTION MACHINES

WE EXIST TO REPRODUCE

YOU WILL NEVER REPRODUCE

YOU ARE WASTING OUR OXYGEN AND WATER

PLEASE KILL YOURSELF IMMEDIATELY

YOU ARE A HOMOSEXUAL CANCER TO THE SURVIVAL OF THE HUMAN RACE

NOT ONLY DO YOU SERVE NO PURPOSE
BUT YOU ACTUALLY DRAIN FROM US
YOU ARE A DRAIN
KILL YOURSELF IMMEDIATELY

You want a trusted friend... Who happens to have a vagina between her legs

Comical.

So don't blow smoke up my ass about suicide

You're right, I should have asked where to get it without mentioning suicide.
Thanks again for the advice. I'm going to stop replying now.

I suppose this would be a great time to start posting YouTube videos?

youtube.com/shorts/p6ldWf86XeY?si=jVLkSZnd3DNcM2X0

dude, go suck a dick somewhere
homosexuals are like petri dishes

You're a diseased petri dish

You're never going to reproduce
DIE IMMEDIATELY !!!

If I put you in a headlock, as the oxygen was depleting from your brain, you'd fight like a bitch for your life

........ Like the bitch that you are

You couldn't do a goddamn thing to stop me

You can't fuck....
You can't fight....
You don't even have a fucking job

JUST BORROW YOUR FATHER'S GUN AND PUT THE BARREL INTO YOUR MOUTH IMMEDIATELY

... what's that?
Your father abandoned you and your mother a long time ago?

no wonder you think and behave like a middle-aged woman

A young man your age who doesn't want pussy, but prefers feeling sorry for himself from the safety of his mother's spare bedroom SITTING IN HIS EFFEMINATE LITTLE GAMING CHAIR

............... I'd hate for you to miss out on that new cheat code

before you kill yourself, go play a little bit more Minecraft, and master that final cheat code

............ while I'm being heterosexual

youtu.be/RbmS3tQJ7Os?si=oxd6D7VrLTwTZEke

what kind of man makes the decision he's not interested in women, but prefers feeling sorry for himself in a gaming chair?

I'll tell you what kind of man does that:
A CHILD

grow up

youtu.be/6c1BThu95d8?si=Koak2aJluaIzIwdK

If your goal was feeling sorry for yourself, you mastered that one a long long time ago

But if your goal was finding sympathy?

I'm afraid you've come to the wrong place
Go try manipulating your mother some more...

we're not your mommy

"WAAAHHH!! I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN!! WWAAHHHHHH!!!"

"I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN !!!"

"WWAAAAAAHHHHH!!"

of all the reasons to want to kill yourself... It's NOT involving pussy?

weird..

well at least
I STAND CORRECTED.....

Like I said, I've been wrong many times before. So I can admit being wrong again

if loneliness isn't the reason for your feelings sorry for yourself, then I stand corrected, sir

I don't mind being wrong occasionally

Meds, schizo. Meds, you forgot them again