Need cuddles :(
Life is hard
Cozy gay thread
same
fuck your gay thread
Want some? With me?
I hope you’re okay.
Fair enough
I’m gay
My regular hookup turned me down last night. It kinda hurt more than I thought it should. Now I'm confused. Do I have feelings for this dude or something?
Hug?
Come on. I know there’s someone in need of a hug too.
It’s okay, we’re anon.
feelings
maybe.
time for a talk maybe. or dropping some hints on him while mentally preparing for more rejection.
maybe he just wasn't in the mood, or has other stuff on his mind. maybe ask him about that. become friends.
what's worse, what I want is out of my league. I'm seriously out of shape and got other health stuff besides that. stuff any normal person would just get taken care of but I don't trust doctors with more than emergency stuff. I don't trust people in general. it's not that I don't trust people, but I distrust people. they earned the distrust.
Hey anon. I just recently came out to my wife of 6 years (friends for 4 more years before) that I'm gay and tried to "marry myself straight" after being deeply closeted and severely in denial since I was a teenager... We have been having intimacy issues throughout our marriage and it made her feel awful, like she wasn't good enough for me or something. It was eating at me for so long that I had just had enough of keeping it inside and spilled my guts to her. She was devastated. (Rightfully so.) I told her that she was still my best friend, but I just feel as though I can't make her happy as a husband because of the way I am. I feel like I stole 6 years of her life away from her by attempting some fucked up experiment... I feel the worst I've ever felt in my life. I could use a hug, but know I probably don't deserve one.
Where's the cozy?
You absolutely deserve a hug anon. I love you, and I can’t imagine how tough that is for you.
Her hurt is totally valid as well but so is yours and I can totally empathize with your situation. I can’t imagine the pain you’ve felt every day living that lie. I am so sorry.
Where are you now if you don’t mind me asking? As in, how long ago was this, are you divorced now? Planning to divorce? Have you ever been with a man? Are you out to anyone else yet? Let it out I’m here to listen.
Are you me? Because same. Except the man I want is my ex. But he has completely turned his life around, is working on himself, getting healthy, whereas I am in the worst spot I have been in my life. I’d only hold him back, so it’s for the best I let him fly.
But it’s so painful. NO ONE could ever love me like he did, if he even ever did. I still… wonder. I dunno.
Right here silly.
I love you all. Seriously.
I am so alone and probably don’t have much time left, just being realistic but talking to you all always makes my night better.
Love you too bro
I wish I still had someone to hold and make everything alright.
We're all here for eachother
probably don't have much time left
FUCK OUTTA HERE WITH THAT SHIT.
no it isn't
the only reasin why you think it's hard is because you're gay
if you chose to be normal, life would be normal, but you chose to be gay, a weird deviation from the right path
so life reacts accordingly and becomes slightly harder for you
and you cry like the baby you are, as if you lived in lebano or something
no, your life is easy, it is a little harder than everyone else's, but that's on you, for chosing to be gay
get over it or become straight, your choice
...sigh... I'll feed the troll.
What's normal? You look at a dude, not aroused but with a woman, arousal.
Swap for OP. That'd be normal.
I get aroused by both. That's my normal.
In the end, who gives a shit?
I texted him hours ago and didn't hear back, something's definitely up.
What was the reason they waved off?
Thank you anon, I really appreciate your kindness. It was a true struggle, especially since we got along so well,we were great friends before too.
This all happened a week ago. The wounds are still very fresh and open. While we are both hurting so badly, we have also been talking a lot and trying to figure out how to proceed forward. We have ultimately decided that a divorce will be in our future, not exactly sure when yet. While I've found guys attractive since I was around 16-17, it wasn't until college that I actually tried anything. It was only hookups during parties, and only hands & oral. It felt so right and amazing in the moment, but afterwards I'd feel so freaking ashamed for liking it so much that I would go into a depressive state for a week or two. I tried my damnedest to crush any "gay" thoughts or feelings that would come up every once in a while after those few times. I ultimately decided (incorrectly) that I would only pursue straight relationships moving forward. I met my wife after starting a new job, we hit it off immediately and became very good friends quickly. Of course, I never spoke of any of my gay experiences or feelings to her, because I also didn't want to believe them. After a couple years of being great friends, we decided to take things further and start dating. We dated for a few more years and decided to get married. I thoroughly convinced myself that this was the right move and that I had done what everyone online said couldn't be done, I had "killed" my gayness... Yeah, not so much. It's such a shame too because we've built such a great life together! Now I've ruined hers and probably my own too. I'm so fucked up.
I've been biting my tongue....
But I can't get on your side. I was used and abused and lied to by the one I married. Not saying either of you is in the right or wrong but I guess I see it from the other perspective sorry pretty high rn
He didn't give one.
I wasn’t really referring to being gay when I said life was hard, although, you’re underestimating how bigoted and fucked up a lot of our parents still are. Gay acceptance happened so fast, plenty of people 50+ still exist and grew up hating it. I’m talking being punched and kicked out of the house, called the worst names, told to kill myself and accused of molesting a relative all by my parent. For some of us it still isn’t really hard.
Come on dude. Not saying what he did was right but I’m sure you can empathize with feeling the need to silence gay thoughts and try to live a straight life. Also you’re bisexual you wouldn’t quite understand what it’s like to truly be fully gay and not be able to make it work with a woman no matter what. He shouldn’t have gotten himself into that but I understand why his shame and denial for being gay brought him there.
You’re not fucked up.
You did what a lot of people, more than you probably realize, do. That’s what a lot of conservatives especially religious ones preach for you to do. “Silence the sinful gay thoughts and find the “right woman””. You tried to make it work for far too long for both of your guys’ sake, and I feel for her badly, but it’s a messy situation all around, and with all of the necessary societal context I can understand the shame you felt for being gay. Coming out is scary. I never came out, my mom found out and I’ll just say it was fucking horrible and I totally would’ve kept it a secret if I could. I would hopefully have not gotten myself in the situation you did, but honestly I might’ve… until it was too much to bear and either killed myself or did the right thing, like you, and eventually be honest.
You’ll be okay. I promise. And I support you. I’m sorry for both you and your wife I cant imagine how hard this is but know that eventually you’ll be happy. Hopefully, this is at least a weight off your shoulders.
Case in point. People really do think you can marry yourself straight.
Sometimes the most ethical thing is to let someone die. Family’s been the only thing holding me back for years and years. At what point in my life can I be selfish just for once and do what’ll end my suffering permanently? Life is not good.
Awww thank you so much~ I hope you have a great time!!
At what point.
You're at that point now. You were at that point days, weeks ago. Weeks from now even.
But fuck your family, right?
My Uncle punched his ticket and my Dad was never the same.
... and I say that as someone who has had. Thoughts...
Good evening people
First and foremost I am extremely sorry for you and your dad. Genuinely. That’s horrible. I don’t want to ignore that.
I never said fuck my family, I took so many bullets for my family. I was the punching bag for them and had to shield them from my insane cunt mother at age 13 to 15 until she finally died.
If they truly understood the pain I’m in day in and day out they’d understand that me continuing this suffering is not fair to me. Hopefully they’d understand I did my job as a son/brother/caregiver and am allowed to say FUCK MY FAMILY just this once. It’s not fair I have to suffer. I’m sorry.
Furthermore I’m so sorry to hear you’ve had thoughts as well. It’s horrible I know.
You’re safe here, we all got you.
Shit.
HUGS
*Hugs back*
I love my family more than anything, they’re all I got. They’re the only reason I haven’t killed myself yet, because I know they (dad, stepmom, and two siblings) love me, but that can only go so far in stopping me. Years and years of that being my ONLY reason… It wears off. I’ll die someday anyway. And they’ll get over it.
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Good evening king. Sorry the morale is low here tonight.
I downed some xanax and am gonna call this a night keep this thread alive my loves and you’ll get a good morning g kiss
Yeah this life thing isn’t getting any better
Why do I have the accent?
Is this where I go to get my Astolfo cosplay BF?
I really wanna know why some do and don't. My man does along with his friends. But I don't have the accent or the mannerisms. Hell I dunno