Self burning for atonement

Does anyone else here feel guilt for their past, and burn themselves as a way to mark that they're bad people so others will avoid them?

I've been burning my arms and hands with cigarettes for about 3 years now, and I think its a really good way to show people that I'm a bad person and should be avoided. I can hide the burns on my arms with a long sleeve shirt, but unless I'm wearing gloves at all times I cannot hide the burns I have on my hands.

I burnt both hands with 4 burns in a triangle pattern with a burn in the middle, as a way to show that the burns are very much intentional and a warning to avoid me.

Does anyone else do this? Is this enough justice or should I do more?

Pic related. When my family is gone I want to become a human candle.

Pics of burned arms, or fake and gay

Here's the 4 on my right hand

And here's the ones on my left arm and the fresh ones I just put on my left hand. The arm burns are almost impossible to see with a camera because I'm as hairy as a sasquatch.

self harm is for the weak and gullible.

It's to help remind me that I'm a bad person, and to help others identify that something is wrong with me. It's justice.

See there in lies the problem only God can judge you you're not getting brownie points for immolating yourself you will just face Gods judgement faster.

Matthew 25:14-30
King James Version
14 For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods.

15 And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey.

16 Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents.

17 And likewise he that had received two, he also gained other two.

18 But he that had received one went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord's money.

19 After a long time the lord of those servants cometh, and reckoneth with them.

20 And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more.

God is way too forgiving, and even if I do go to hell, its not enough of a punishment. I need to suffer both there and here.

21 His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.

22 He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them.

23 His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.

24 Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed:

25 And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.

26 His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed:

27 Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury.

28 Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents.

29 For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath.

30 And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

I actively want god to send me to hell, I do not want forgiveness. I want justice.

If anything, the burning and eventual self immolation is a nice warm up to the main course once I die.

you are a cuck. if you actually had any balls you'd harm those that dared mock you

Nobody is mocking me. I'm the one who's wronged many other people. In my experience the majority of people have been nothing but kind to me.

yeah, you're hopeless. enjoy being a dumb cattle

You said to harm the people mocking me, but nobody is mocking me. I'm a very charming person irl and I've used that charm to do terrible things to people.

Not everyone on Anon Babble has a victim complex from bullying anon. I was quite popular in highschool.

The moral of the story a very important one is stop being afraid to lose whatever dumb bullshit you have because tomorrow you will reap what you sow. Good or bad doesn't matter today is a good day maybe tomorrow you lose everything but feelings are just fake lies you tell yourself to hide in like the man that hid the talent. Stop hiding and be seen stop being afraid to be yourself and be known be what has made you be and he will multiply your greatness 1 million fold.

I'm not hiding. I'm actively harming myself as punishment for my sins, and encourage god to do the same. I do not want greatness. I want damnation.

You must have done some serious shit to wish that on yourself. Did you set fire to an orphanage or something?

God is good, but he is too forgiving and loving. I feel remorse for my sins and have even confessed them, that isn't enough. I cannot get off easy for what I've done. I need to burn, both on this world and the next.

I used my charm to take advantage of many people. I stole from many people, and tricked them into giving me stuff. I stole my own mothers jewelry, including her wedding ring, and sold it for drugs.

I used my charm to trick women into believing we where in a relationship so I could sleep with them, and then ghost them. I threatened my own mother and made her afraid of me, just for trying to help me. I've lied about my father and his abuse because I thought it would protect my sister from him.

I'm also a pedo, I'm into lolicon. I've never actually touched a child, and actively avoid them both on and offline, but just being a pedo offending or not, is enough reason on its own to burn.

I've spent the last decade of my life trying to fix myself and repent for what i've done, but in the last 3 years I realized that I am not deserving of forgiveness, and should do everything in my power to harm myself, as long as it doesn't harm other people.

I've manipulated my family into still loving me, and dying right now would destroy them, so I'm waiting for them to either leave me, or pass on to the next world before I become a human candle and finally get what I deserve.

Nail your sack to the floor to show your regret for your actions. Pics or it didn't happen

Sounds like you need professional help. For real.

I'm in therapy. My therapist told me I need to forgive myself, which I am simply unwilling to do. I know he's only saying it because he is obligated to have my best interests in mind, and nobody with even a tiny bit of a conscious would ever tell me to do that.

It's hot when mentally ill women do it but I don't really care about males

Your fortune: Outlook good

I'm not going to judge you, because doing so would be very hypocritical of me, but you should consider stopping and getting therapy before you wind up like me.

what? therapy for what, liking women?

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck

being raped by clowns for self atonement

how about you just learn to forgive your errors
and try not to repeat them?
why create more errors in order to cover up the old ones?
face your mistakes
make peace with them
then move on.

Your fortune: Average Luck

You need more therapy. Everyone has done stupid in their life that they greatly regret. I certainly have. Not sure how you feel about religion but regardless the Bible does have valuable lessons in it. IMO, the overall point of the Bible is that everyone can improve themselves and be a better person but it's up to you and only you to take that step. You can sit around and feel sorry for yourself over the things you've done or you try and improve yourself.

No, for getting off on women harming themselves. Vaginis is awesome, nobody should judge you for liking that.

I love God. I'm not super religious but I do love God. I'm sure he loves me too, as he does all his children. I just don't agree with him on forgiving me.

Logically you're right, but I just don't think I can bring myself to forgive myself. I've had a lot of self improvement, so at the very least now the only person I'm harming is myself.

I just don't agree with him on forgiving me.

While we might think we don't deserve it(something I've struggled with myself) the fact we are here means God believes in us and in you. I'm not a fan of organized religion myself but I do believe in God for reasons that have nothing to do with the Bible but it contains valuable lessons. Maybe you try reading it? It's not an easy read, it repeats itself a lot, but I've learned a lot from it.

try to let go of the past anon
learn from your mistakes and move on
there's no reason to hold on like this or subject yourself to more pain
i think the problem is you focus on these mistakes from a perspective of shame instead of seeing them for what they truly are
even if i am wrong concerning that there's no reason to hold on to your actions and their consequences like this
trying not to repeat your mistakes should be good enough
no forgiveness needed really
you only need to let go

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I've done bible studies before. I'm not an expert, but I do have some verses I like. I would definitely say I know god.

I've been trying for years now, but I don't really have a choice but to keep trying. I've done a lot of good to make up for the bad, but I don't think my struggles with self loathing will ever truly go away.

I have no intention of dying until my family is gone, and both of my parents are in good health, and despite living out of state they definitely worry about me.

So at the very least I'd say I have a good decade to try and move on, before I resort to the human candle option.

I'm honestly surprised the people here are all suggesting I move on. I thought Anon Babble would be far more wrathful, and agree with me. I have a lot to think about.

I've done bible studies before.

I'm not talking about bible studies. You can try reading the bible yourself from start to finish and form your own opinion. A lot gets lost without the context. Whatever your decision, I wish you the best in your road to self-improvement.

Thank you for your kind words. I have a bible, and I might give it a read.

hurting yourself isn't going to do anything other than drag you down and by consequence drag those you care about down as well
you need to learn to shift your mind away from the object of devotion and dark worship you have devoted yourself to
you sit on your guilt and actions
pay them your time and sacrifice your flesh to them as a burnt offering
you claim to worship God but you devote more of yourself to your own self loathing than to God
and so I wonder what you really are
have you ever dabbled with dark entities or magic?
are you demon possessed?
if not then why do you worship pain and partake in dark ritualistic sacrifice?
it's your life
until you rid yourself of this fixation on the past you will be something any devil would hope to create in a man
God help you overcome and forgive yourself.

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I don't mess with anything related to magic, or demonic. I wouldn't call the burning a ritual, but you are right that its not something god would approve of.

something you repeat over and over again

you burn yourself in the name of marring yourself

in order to mark yourself as a bad person

it's basically a sacrifice and the fact you do it over and over again towards a specific end goal makes it something like a ritual
a ritual of burnt flesh to mark yourself as bad/wicked/evil
no no
youre definitely not playing into the whims of anything dark :^)
it's a mystery you cannot see what you are doing
it's almost as bad as a man atttacking someone in the name of the devil then asking where all the blood is coming from while begging God to help him
is he so blinded or possessed he cannot see or comprehend what he is doing?
does he not have autonomy/control over his own actions and senses?
frightening.

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All that you've claimed to have done as well as showcasing what you consider self-inflicted punishment to us is nothing but jacking yourself off for attention. These 'payments' are as worthless as monopoly money. So add vanity onto your laundry list of deathly teenager sins you've committed.

You're not acquainted with real suffering. Maybe you're interested in it for the time being but that is a commitment you won't hold onto once it finds you and you aren't in control.

Samefag and obvious troll.