Update - sister told our mom

I've attached my first post. I'll post the previous updates in this thread. This will be my final post. TL;DR I (20F) been in love with my sister (28F) for as long as I can remember, we're extremely close, she's moving far away, and when she told me I freaked out and eventually told her the truth, that I am in love with her and have had romantic and sexual desires for her for many years. She was shocked and disgusted. She reached out the day after and we talked thru things and it seemed like there might be some way to save our relationship, but not now. I have ruined my life.

My mom called me today. I was too scared to answer. She left a message saying that my sister talked to her about "what I said to her." She said that the four of us (my mom, dad, sister and I) need to talk about getting me help. I absolutely cannot do this. I will not come home for Thanksgiving. I am going to kill myself. I'm just trying to think of what final message I can send my sister so that she doesn't feel responsible for my death.

Update 1

Update 2

no one cares retard kill yourself

People asked me to update

Tits and timestamp or gtfo

dubs

how are you going to do it?

I'll cut my wrists after my roommate leaves tomorrow morning

on the off chance this is real dont kill yourself ffs your family clearly love you otherwise they wouldnt give a fuck

Can I fuck your corpse?

And have everyone know my secret and be locked away in some mental hospital?

Shoot some bankers or politicians before killing yourself
Make something of it, don't waste your precious life without fixing the world a little bit

Don't have a gun

trips

Steal one or buy one on credit
Not like the criminal record or unpaid debt will matter after you die lmao

double dubs

Why not just abandon your life and volunteer for like a foreign aid relief mission or something? No dying, you won't have your sis feel guilt, and it gives you a chance for a fresh start without having to go to a nuthouse.

imagine being 20 and thinking your life is over because you'll only ever love one person and they wont love you back and to make matters worse youve had incest fantasies

you are literally a child at 20. you are TWO years into the phase of your life where you are allowed to fuck things up without the oversight of an actual adult. you are a child. your life hasnt even started yet, its nowhere near over unless you make a really bad decision to end it

you'd be surprised about how resilient your heart is. do you think that every person who has ever been broken up with, cheated on, divorced, widowed etc was less in love with the person they lost than you are with your sister? they survived it, and moved on, and you will too

incest is a very common thing. you won't be locked up or anything. you can take control of this situation, set the narrative, "get help" if your family insists and have a professional explain to your family that incest is a common thing that happens naturally in situations like yours. or you can simply play it of like you over reacted to her moving away and over stated the severity of your feelings.

now lets all calm down and get a nice look at your feet, tits, butthole, thighs and belly.

Dear diary...

so instead of playing it off you admit it and now you have to face the music. thats all your fault.

Yes it is. I did it to myself

On the off chance this is real, I get the thought that you need to run away from it, but generally things will go better if you try to tackle it and try to talk to your family, if you really really can't then leave for someplace far away and start a new life. Your death will achieve nothing but utterly destroying you and your family... You don't want to die, once you're dead there's no going back so literally any alternative is gonna be better

gtfo

ffs this

Alright, here's your game plan to get out of this.

Dont worry, you still get to be gay for your sister.

Call your mom. Apologize for not taking her calls, tell her you've been going through some really hard things lately, you decided to sit down and really think about your feelings. What you thought was romantic love for your sister was a bunch of wires getting crossed in your head. Your sister pressed you for an answer during the original conversation and you thought that's what she wanted to hear or something. You need to lie about this - not because you're a bad person (you're not) but because they're overreacting like crazy about this. Shift the focus back to your mom by asking stuff like "have you ever been confused about your feelings?" "Haven't you ever felt this pressured?" Don't let the whole conversation be about you, keep making it more general. To avoid feeling attacked, turn it into a conversation. If she bring it up again, just agree that of course its ridiculous and crazy and you're glad you see more clearly now.

Repeat this process when you talk to your sister and the rest of your family. Be confident. Laugh about it. Be embarrassed, but they need to see it's a sure thing in your mind for them to move on. Family forgets, and moves on. They want to, and they need to. Keep this up, lie, make shit up, force them to move on. If they bring it up again stand your ground, repeat what you said before. Show them how tired you are of talking about it. Make them self-conscious about bringing it up. They dont want to in the first place. Trust the plan.

Alright, here's the fun part. Now you've planted the seed of romantic love in your sister's mind. When's the last time you heard of something new and unusual and were on board immediately? That's right, never. New ideas need time. Let her digest what you've told her, and there's a chance it might begin to appeal to her. But this can only happen if you're not weird about it, that means follow the plan.

Welp, yes, you fucked up. But like someone else said, you're 20. You'll love someone else, it'll take time, but it'll work out. Now, look: yes, it's embarrassing your parents know, but they're not going to tell anyone else, this is embarrassing and weird for them too. My advice is to downplay it, to explain that you were upset and overreacting and yes you said that but you know it's crazy, etc., you'll be fine, just please everyone LET IT GO.

And throw yourself into dating.

Maybe do skip thanksgiving, it's gonna be too awkward. Don't kill yourself, get therapy on your own (even talking to strangers online is helpful, but like, somewhere better than Anon Babble ffs.

Also, tits.

tits or gtfo

lesbian

Skip.

Hey anon. I know things suck right now, but you fucking did it. You REALLY lived - something most people never do.
There's no reason to take your life. Believe it or not, "this too shall pass." Time moves on. People change. History forgets.
You're too young to pull back and look at the bigger picture, but some day you will. And you'll realize it was better that you did this than to have lived your life half-heartedly.

Keep going at life 100%. Fear, shame, regret... that shit's for NPCs. It'll be hard, but stand and face this, and let it pass.

Well I’m mildly amused so there’s that

This isn’t real numb nuts

Actually yes, anon. If you disagree you're either in your 20s or younger yourself, or you're a chomo. 20 year olds are brainlets and shouldn't legally be considered adults in any capacity.

The minimum age for smoking, drinking, sex, voting, eligibility for loans of any kind, etc. etc. should all be raised to 24. Parents should be legally obligated to provide and care for a child until 24 years of age, minimum.

And again, if you feel any differently you are a chomo, so think carefully before you self-report. Nobody who has interacted with children between 18 and 24 in any serious capacity thinks they're capable of functioning as adults.

Oh my fucking God. Why do you keep posting these fucking stories, we all know its coming from the same guy. You were her last week posting about fucking your mom. Stop this shit, get some help... or a job.

Kek
You overplayed your hand there, pal.

No. I am being completely serious. It baffles me that we let these children drive, vote and go to war when they're often not capable of critical thinking or objective decision making.

I think this is maybe actionable advice so thank you. It is possible that only the four of us will ever know. My sister is not going to reciprocate my feelings and if I'm not killing myself I do have to get rid of them somehow though

Listen, you dopey dumbfucking coom brain: go enlist in the military tomorrow. I'm not even fucking kidding. Call me a glownigger all you want but it's either that or you living on the street. Choose wisely.

The problem is what you're displaying. The continued babying of children well into adulthood.
100 years ago we didn't have this problem because we didn't treat 20 year olds like children. We treated 14-15 year olds like grown ass adults and we made damn sure they knew how to act like it.

Well, we clearly aren't going to force them to grow up or force parents to raise them right.
So the only logical alternative, then, is to raise the age of adulthood.